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Faith Magee

this site is for a special little lady who sadly lost the fight, 30th 0ct at 6.15pm she was a brave little angel who is greatly loved my many but none more so than by her mum amanda and brothers ali and theo she had a very short time on this earth but has made a great impact on us all i\'ve created this site for her mum and family to come on and tell her story when they are ready to do so but wanted them to all to know i am thinking of them and little faith will eternally travel with them all

Thanks Ronnie!!

Thank you all for visiting Faith\'s memorial page which Ronnie kindly set up for her to be remembered.

Faith maybe had a short life but it was certainly eventful and had more ups and downs than a rollercoaster!! Now ... when she was born on September 3rd she came 4 weeks early, I was due in for to get induced on 17th which would have made her two weeks early.

My waters broke at 4:30am and I rushed to the hospital as i knew that she had to be born in Queen Mothers Maternity Hospital in Glasgow because of her Cognital Diaphragmatic Hernia. However ... Faith continuing to be the awkward lil madam she had been through the whole pregnancy decided that she\'d be born in Dumfries and by C-section.

She arrived at 6:16am and was taken away straight away by the consultant. I expected this, her being taken away, I did think i\'d get to at least see her before she went tho ... I didn\'t even get a glimpse. (The birth was mad ... the male nurse and i sat and talked about people with Autism and the different levels of the spectrum. When he said \"6:16\" I had no idea what he was on about!!)

Hours passed ... Erica was the first person to come and visit me, I was desperate to see her, they wouldn\'t let me move until i had a little bit of feeling back in my legs. I worked at it and worked at it until i was able to wriggle in my bed ... apparently i was quick at coming round! (I wonder why?!)

At 11:15am I had been allowed to go through to see Faith. She was so perfect, I just wanted to pick her up and cuddle her. She had the cutest ever pink hat on. Tammy was first to go in with me, then my mother came in, then Erica. After taking loads of pictures, asking loads of questions (that i can\'t even remember what they were) we left her so that she could start her journey up the road to Glasgow with the staff from the Queen Mum\'s.

I got taken onto the ward in Dumfries. All i could think about was getting to Faith, I cried and cried when i couldn\'t get there. When it was lunch time i sat forwards to eat up (by god did the section wound hurt) but i still managed to sit forwards. I finished eating and went to sit back in the bed and the nurse came back to the room i moved my covers forwards to sit back more comfortably and suddenly i rushed the bed with blood from my section wound.

The nurse thought that it was just some blood that had been sitting behind the wound that needed to come forwards. It was left at that and I had several visitors in the afternoon. Laura Clash came in, Aunt Jane, Aunt June and Rebecca. My shoulders started getting so painful, the nurses got me heat packs that seemed to sort out the problem for the time being.

I got more and more mobile, I was adamant that i was getting to Glasgow, all i cared about was getting to my baby before she had to go for her operation. Still armed with my cathater (what a horrible thing that was!), I had a really bad dose of the runs due to some of the painkillers they\'d fed me. The more i moved the more painful i had become in the shoulders and under the ribs.

All i could think about was the chances of me getting to Faith slippin further and further away as i pressed the buzzer for the nurses to come and help me when i couldn\'t move in my bed. Emotional pain ... apparently that was all that i was suffering ... silly cow ... a mother knows the difference between emotional pain and physical pain!!

Emotional pain ... by gawd was i fed up of that midwife by the time she finally got the doctor to come and see me at the end of her shift!! He sent me for scans and x-rays to find out if there was a problem (if!). However to cut a long story short Tuesday evening about 8pm i was taken into the operating theatre and this put me back getting to Glasgow, on the Friday morning i was told that i\'d be going on Monday after the weekend.

Friday mornin i received a phone call from Mr Carl Davis from Yorkhill hospital asking for permission to carry out the operation on Faith to fix her diaphragmatic hernia. I was gutted ... I couldn\'t get to Glasgow ... no one was going to be there for her and I couldn\'t get there!

I forced myself to get out of my bed, into the shower, prove to the doctors that i was fit enough to travel. I wanted there the next day ... Saturday morning i just wanted to be there with her. Instead the Doctor was that impressed that I\'d got up and sorted out that he let me go up the road on the friday afternoon.

I was packed and ready to go half an hour before the guy came to take me! I got up to the Queen Mums and booked in ... the nurses were very adamant that i needed someone to go over with me to the new ward that she was on. 2B in Yorkhill. I didn\'t care if i was on my own or with Jesus ... I just wanted to be with the little soul.

I went up to the ward with one of the nurses from the Queen Mum\'s. When i got into the room that Faith was in I couldn\'t help myself but break down. That little girl was laid out on her bed looking as if she was taking fits (it was just the type of ventilator she was on tho!). \"What the hell have i done to her\" I asked Carl Davis. \"Given her the chance to live\" he replied.

He went on to explain about the ECMO machine and how Faith had to go onto it to give her lungs a chance to develop. They wanted to put a fluid into her lungs to try and get a bit bigger as they were very condensed by her stomach, liver and bowel in her chest cavity.

I went back over to the Queen Mum\'s and waited on them putting her onto ECMO and the doctors coming over to talk to me about everything since i had such a lot to take in. Tammy, Erica and Aunt June came up to make sure i was alright following a call from the hospital asking them to come and stay the night.

Erica stayed the weekend with me and supported me with everything. I stayed in the queen mothers for 5 days then finally got discharged. I went to stay in Ronald McDonalds, the parent accomodation across the way.

Daily i\'d spend hours with Faith, her ups and downs with her health was just like that rollercoaster i mentioned earlier. The fluids they were using to try and expand her lungs wasn\'t working so they decided to try her off the ECMO machine and going onto Kidney Dialysis.

She spent three days off Kidney Dialysis and ended up back on the ECMO. Everytime they tried to take fluid off her using it she let her blood pressure drop. I had to rush back from Dumfries to be with her as she was unstable again. Faith had been put back onto ECMO and this time it was for her heart and lungs instead of just lungs.

All the time she was on ECMO she maybe looked puffy but she always looked a picture of health. It\'s so horrible not to see what\'s actually wrong and them looking a picture of health. I got told she had less than a 50% chance to come off ECMO but she turned that around n was able to come off ... fair enough she went back onto it but she still got off it!!

The 2nd time that she was back on it they were talkin about her future plans ... they wanted to move her into another ward ... PICU where they could give her 24 hour kidney dialysis instead of 12 hour kidney dialysis. This was scary but such a vital thing to happen.

She moved through there and within a few days they wanted to try taking her off her kidney dialysis again, they tried twice on the Friday morning and she almost slipped away both times, however they topped up her fluids and gave her a dose of steroids and she was perfect again. 3rd time lucky!!

Kidney dialysis was working fine ... she was running at negative levels for the first time in her life (which amazed everyone as she always liked to be a little positive!). Then she caught an infection ... blood cultures showed that she was sensitive to a couple of the medicines that they\'d been giving her. They started giving her antibiotics and fight against the infection.

In the mean time she was struggling to maintain a temprature, her bowels hadn't moved in several days and on Tuesday 30th October she took a cardiac arrest in the morning. The doctors asked me to attend a meeting in the afternoon to discuss the plans for Faith and they asked me if they could switch her machines off as it was getting harder and harder for her to fight and they\'d no way of trying to get her to recover from everything that she had faced. It was the hardest ever agreement that i\'ve ever had to make but it was definately the right decision to make.

Tammy and my mother came up the road and was there with Rab and I when Faith passed over. My first longed for cuddle was my last one, but at least she got to pass in my arms and feel my warmth and love toward her. Tammy sang to her, I think that was to stop her crying but she did so well and it stopped all of us from crying. Faith fought on for a very surprising length of time after all the machines were switched off.

She did herself proud!

After she passed I got to bath her and get her dressed into her clothes, she looked so beautiful, so peaceful, there was no cables or wires coming from her little body. She ended up with glitter on her ... i\'ve no idea where it came from but i certainly feel it\'s just like angel dust. My little angel was taken away at 6:15pm I left her at 9:45pm. I spent my time with her giving her the cuddles she deserved so that she knew that she was loved.

I\'ve spent many hours with her since she passed and tomorrow is the last time that i\'ll be able to see her, it\'s going to be a very emotional time. She will be dressed in the gorgeous dress that Emma and Wing bought her, letters will go into her coffin from Ali and myself.

Her memory will last forever ... not just from her family but by everyone\'s hearts that she touched ... she touched so many!!


Nakita (her neighbour in PICU who passed two days after Faith) and Faith will be watchin down over us from the stars sendin us their love. Don\'t spend too much time playin with the stardust!!

Kyle Alexander Mullen, her neighbour and friend that lived with her in 2b then PICU also passed late December. Another little angel to play in the stars.

Emily Ellie Mae Trickett, a true friend's princess that has joined Faith. Have fun playing in the stars lil girl ... sprinkle lots of stardust near your Mum Dad and sister as often as you can!!

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Faith\'s funeral took place on Monday 12th November 2007 at 3pm.

The song list (for you that have requested it) was

Damien Rice - Cannonball
U2 - With or without you
Athlete - Wires
Evanessence - My Immortal

The donations that were received at the funeral were given to the ECMO team in Yorkhill hospital in Glasgow. £140.51 was handed over last week. Thank you all for the donations, hopefully it\'ll help other people be so fortunate even if it is only to have a little bit of extra time with their little one!

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On 6th January I was back up at Yorkhill to receive the post mortem results for Faith. Mr Davies was very surprised with her.

There was no visible signs of brain damage, her lung was really clear and if she had survived she would have had been strong. Her intestines were working, she had a scar on her heart, they had no idea when she got it. All of these problems could have been workable, however they didn\'t help her in the long run. The major playing part of her having to go was that her kidneys were very immature and she had a dependancy on steroids. We\'ve no idea why her kidneys were immature, however she was the only child in the whole of the UK to have been born with this. They\'re doing research into this condition.
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26th March 2008
Faith's story has been featured in the Scottish Sun ... hopefully it'll raise awareness for the CDH and the Hospitals excellent service that they offer at Yorkhill hospital in Glasgow!

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9th May we had a rave in The Venue in Dumfries, Bass Generator, DJ Ballistic, MC Loco and Trippy John all came to perform for the memory of Faith and we're very proud to say that we raised £710.95!! All proceeds raised are going to the ECMO Fund in Yorkhill Hospital.

Thanks for your support everyone!!

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This poem was sent to me by my cousin Tammy ... it pretty much sums up Faith\'s time here with us.

On the 3rd day of September, 2007
God gave me Faith, on loan from Heaven
That day is one I’ll never forget
Her birth was something I’ll never regret

Before she arrived I knew she’d a fight
To make it through to see tomorrows light
But the doctors and nurses they acted fast
And Faith was still here when that day past

72 miles apart for the first few days
My heart was torn in so many ways
By her side is where I wanted to be
But my failing health kept her from me

4 days later I found myself by her side
Time so precious I’d have to bide
Before I could hold her in my arms
She’d away of moving us, she’d magic charms

And I had my faith, I had so much hope
People were wondering how I’d you cope
But all that mattered was the life of my child
My little Angel, so meak and mild

On the 54th day into her fight
She closed her eyes, said goodbye to the light
Her little spirit was begging for peace, for rest
The machines, the nurses were doing their best

And although we didn’t hear him call
The monitors showed her heart rate fall
Her little body couldn’t fight no more
And up in Heaven he opened the door

For 57 days her tired body battled on
Till they day came when her fight was gone
The alarms where silenced, the only sound
Was the lullabies playing all around

The early evening brought the mist
And in my arms, her head I kissed
There wasn’t a single star you could see
And I knew that she was leaving me

On 30th October 2007
The Angels took her to rest in Heaven
And with my Faith they took my heart
And whispered darling you can’t fall apart

I know they all wonder how does she cope
I’ve lost my Faith, my heart, my hope
But I’ve still 2 little boys who’re just as precious to me
And her spirit will never leave it will always be.

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Amanda Magee (Mummy)
April 28, 2009

faith

faith you were such a beautiful child
god took you himself with the biggest smile
he wanted you for you were like an angel
with a bright little halo and that aint all
he knew you were a baby that needed special care
so hes got you now and likes to sit and stare
for a gorgeous baby mandz you did have
im just so sorry things turned out so bad
but just remember shes with god now and forever
till the day you come to pass and go collect her
for she will be waiting for her gorgeous mum
for you mandz magee you are her number one
so mandz im so sorry for the loss you had to bare
and i want you to know i than i am always here
so faith you will always be in our prayers and thoughts
we wish you were here and we all miss you lots.

Andrew Brown (Family Friend)
March 27, 2009

read your story and feel so moved by it all.
god bless you all!xxxx

Babybegleytwins Mummy February 22, 2009

Ickle Bubbs

Ello's darlin, I know i've not been on in ages and left you a message. You're in my heart and thoughts each and every hour tho. I miss you so much, times have been hard recently but you cheer me up every time i think about you.

I hope you're keepin baby outta trouble, knowing your mood swings you'll be doing that fine tho!! I really wish you were here to hold and cuddle. I really do miss standing beside that hospital bed being able to talk to you and seeing you look into my eyes even through all the medication you were on.

We had your photo's out the other night looking through them, there's so many of them that look the same to other people, I'm able to go back and tell folks what each day meant ... what you'd done that day ... how i'd been feeling with it all ... So unfair that you're not here to do that with anymore.

I love you darlin, wrap up warm n sleep tight
Mummy
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Amanda Magee (Mummy)
January 27, 2009

Missing You, Child, at Christmas

Everybody's rushing round
Full of festive cheer
But I'm finding all I want to do
At Christmas, is come here.

To talk to you a little while
And light a candle or two
I can't buy you a present
So what else can I do?

Remember child, I love you
I'm still hurting with this pain
I don't think it will ever stop
Until I'm with you once again.

Rachel Bass. Josh
December 14, 2008

Ickle Bubbs

Hey gorgeous gurl,

I thought i'd come and leave you a little message as i've not been on for ages.

Times are tough just now, I'm missing you more than ever. Not one hour goes by without me thinking or talkin about you at least once.

Hope you've wrapped up nice and warm and you're keeping baby warm too.

Love you so much darlin

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Amanda Magee (Mummy)
December 7, 2008

"Angel"
Tear drops, slow and steady,
The pain so real and true,
God took another angel,
And that angel, dear, was you.

Angel wings, upon the clouds,
Your body softly sleeps,
Hush now little angel,
No more tears you have to weep.

Little prayers,are sent to you,
The short life you led;
Your family will never forget you,
So rest your little head.

I know God will look after you,
Now you are truly alive,
Your spirit soars beyond the moon,
Your legacy will survive.

You’re beautiful, you’re endless,
Now stretch your wings and fly,
Your loved by so many,
It will never be goodbye.

Close your pretty eyes,
No more tears,just go and rest,
Let your soul lie peacefully,
we know you did your best.

A poem written by mellanie campbell
for all the GTS little angels x

Mell Campbell
November 15, 2008

gorgeous

You r so gorgeous ,play happily with all your friends up above.Hope you have met my wee grandaughter Kelsey-Louise Mclay and you r both having lots of fun Sweet dreams xxxx

Audrey McLay November 15, 2008

What a beautiful memorial you have made for your beautiful little girl..you were truly blessed by an angel. Thinking of you today x

Carole Mummy Of Christopher Archer
November 14, 2008

Gorgeous Ickle Bubbs

Just to let you know that we miss you so much darlin, today has been a year since your funeral and we haven't stopped thinking about you since this day.

More so at the moment because of all the bad press about all the babies and children that have been brutally taken away from this life where they should have been cared for and loved just like you and Baby.

We love you Ickle Bubbs

XxXxX

Amanda Magee (Mummy)
November 14, 2008

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	Love from Mel. (Findlay's Mummy - another cherub angel). x x

From Findlay's

	A teddy for you to cuddle at night xxx

From Diana